It's been a whirlwind, spiritually. I feel like I just got off a roller-coaster and am now trying to get my bearings on solid ground again. It's not very easy, considering the family situation (what else is new), and I have days where I pretty much turn my living space into some kind of cave for me to retreat into and veg, doing my best to completely ignore the circumstances. I thought I was handling it gracefully. At the moment, it's anything but.
I guess I'm just tired of everything going on right now. It's been dragging on for quite a while and I honestly don't know how much more I can endure. The seminar this past May was a great reprieve and I'm still so grateful for everything that's happened. Maybe I should try to let the memory motivate me more. Anything to keep trudging in the mud. Dry ground will come my way eventually.
